I have attempted to offer you a Nutshell Thought of our 15 months of separation. I've come up with some small grains, so I offer them to you.
No matter how painful or endless or devastating, or filled with joy or fulfillment or purpose....or tragedy, trauma, or sacrifice---- life just goes on. It goes on.....and then *poof* it's all over, and Heaven begins. God has frequently shown me the parallels between Ben's and my journey through deployment and the journey of Life into Eternity.
The things we have been through in 15 months are not unlike how the rest of our lives will be---going from highs to lows....then just plateauing....then lows, then highs.......but always moving forward to one day the glorious, beautiful finish...filled with rest, new life, joy, and best of all, His Perfect Presence for eternity. Thank God---thank GOD that it doesn't end here on earth.
I am ashamed to think, however, how seldom I affix my hope on HEAVEN. Whereas, over the last 15 months, I have done nothing but count the days till Ben's return. HEAVEN--people!!! It's HEAVEN!!! We should be more excited over that upcoming glory than I am over my husband coming home from Iraq!! ARE YOU???? Think about it. It will enrich your life. Your heart will overflow! Mine has.
It is a goal of mine, now, to maintain this passionate expectation and to affix my eyes on HEAVEN, and the return of Christ, now that I no longer mourn my husband's absence. I really can think of nothing better to do than that!