Friday, November 27, 2009

These Days

What's really been going on is a procrastination of sorts....wherein I feel if I put off writing a blog post, more time will have passed since the previous one, and then time will have gone by ......more!

Yeah, it's all about passage of time these days. Even going to visit family holds with it enough bittersweetness to be more bitter than sweet, and I find myself relishing the feeling of "Good, that one's done" more than I relish the actual time spent with family. This is how it goes when the love of your life is absent. Even the enjoyment of time spent with family is hollowed out by that feeling of missing the One Who Owns Your Heart. I'm closer to being with him again with every passing family trip, and getting them checked off and getting us closer to his return is more exciting and meaningful to me than actually seeing my friends and family.

Sound twisted? Well, I guess it just goes to show exactly how powerful our love has become. I really do pine for him.....besides, it's War that's twisted. I'm just doing what I can.

*sigh*


So, Thanksgiving. . . . . *check*

Christmas. . . . . . . . . . . .

Some Traveling. . . . . . . .

My Birthday. . . . . . . . . . .

Easter. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

and then Ben.

3 comments:

Hosanna said...

You're sounding awfully morbid these days

Matt and Laurie Beardsley said...

I have to say, I never would have gotten that until I read your post, but it completely makes sense! Praise God for the passage of time that brings you two closer together!

Scot and Kristen said...

This must be so hard, Susie, for you and Ben both... keep being a strong woman like you are. When you and your husband are reunited all the bittersweet longings you have now that tug at your heartstrings and make you long to be with him will be lost in love and delight!! I pray special grace will be with you as you carry his baby these next months... Love you!!