Sunday, January 31, 2010


Sometimes, this deployment gets me down. So much of my life's goals and the closest desires of my heart are wrapped up in the man I am missing.... husband, father of my children, friend, lover.....that I feel really just empty of anything but grief for all that is being withheld from me.

Today has been one of those days. Joy has eluded me. I started out my long evening alone after Violet was put to bed with a plan for forgetting everything as quickly as possible with internet shopping, watching t.v., and *not* looking at the dirty kitchen I have come to hate cleaning. I saw a little too clearly how pathetic I looked. I glanced quickly away from my bible sitting there, not yet put away from church, and retorted, "Lord, do you really satisfy the desires of my heart?"

Soon after, my internet browsing brought me to this.

My conclusion is that God deepens the desires of our hearts, drawing us further upwards and further inwards towards Him and Holiness and Eternity. Images like these, of the God transcended into manhood remind me of exactly how incredible it is to have quickened the interest of a Holy God, and exactly how far He will go to bring us into that realm of deep relationship with Him.


Jenny said...

Funny, I'd sung this song before, but 2 of my worship team ladies brought it to my attention lately as one they'd like to see us do in, I'll be starting it here soon, too!
We used a verse this morning that lit me up! 2 Cor. 4:6 "For God (THE CREATOR OF ALL), who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made His (HIS) light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ."

Herb of Grace said...

Great verse, Jen! Made my day :)

Joy said...

This really does cause me to fall on my knees and lift my hands in praise to Jesus.

We studied John 13 this week in Bible study, the very thing you have written about here in your blog. It has impacted me and been wholly part of my thinking lately. Thank you for the thoughts!

Susi, it is amazing how praise to the Savior can lift us out of our dumpy days and thoughts. He knows our reality and He loves us, will do anything to draw our hearts closer to Himself; He's so patient. Praying for you, dear friend.