Sometimes, this deployment gets me down. So much of my life's goals and the closest desires of my heart are wrapped up in the man I am missing.... husband, father of my children, friend, lover.....that I feel really just empty of anything but grief for all that is being withheld from me.
Today has been one of those days. Joy has eluded me. I started out my long evening alone after Violet was put to bed with a plan for forgetting everything as quickly as possible with internet shopping, watching t.v., and *not* looking at the dirty kitchen I have come to hate cleaning. I saw a little too clearly how pathetic I looked. I glanced quickly away from my bible sitting there, not yet put away from church, and retorted, "Lord, do you really satisfy the desires of my heart?"
Soon after, my internet browsing brought me to this.
My conclusion is that God deepens the desires of our hearts, drawing us further upwards and further inwards towards Him and Holiness and Eternity. Images like these, of the God transcended into manhood remind me of exactly how incredible it is to have quickened the interest of a Holy God, and exactly how far He will go to bring us into that realm of deep relationship with Him.